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Name: Shantelle
Birthday: 9/23/1985
Gender: Female


Interests: I'm 21... i'm a 1sT tiMe MOmMY YiPPie.. and A veRy ProUd and i can't imagine myself any happier then i am today.. other then the basics of working to have and give my lil Jr a great life.. i am a very proud mommy!!! i'm recently single... not by my choice..i love to make new friends and catch up with old one's.. .. :) I also love to dance i just luv how you can experess yourself without words.. just music and dance moves.. it's amazing.. i enjoy almost everything lately hahaha... i also luv to read and write and of course playin around on the computer so if u c me say hello thats it for now hope to hear from you ........if you want to know more about me just drop in and feel free to ask any questions.. hugs and hope to hear from you... bye, bye for now..
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Monday, December 11, 2006

Hey everyone... yeah i know long time... no update.. but i'm here now.. and updating ... LOL!!! Well let me say i got sum of my christmas shoppin done... and it will be done soon... we finally got our tree and we had an early x-mas with some of my family that won't be able to make it on christmas.. =( ................. Jr is doing great i have a few new pictures but i haven't had a chance to put anything up. Things are looking great at work... its a great job and i'm enjoying the work.. sometimes it's a little hectic but it's good.... but it's amazing how things just went to pieces so fast ... a few weeks back we were talkin about taking it slow and now that i'm actually ok with the whole no talking and no  .. ... but i can't say i'm a mess because i'm doing well ... . i know i'm changing i'm gettin used to everything and yeah i'm hurting but i'm ok.. not  broken ... but i'm happy with what i have... and knowing that i tryed and things just didnt work out is ok because it was a great (almost) 7 years... and we had our up's and downs but i have great memories with him as well as his family and i don't regret anything other then whats going on  now... but it's not as horrible as you think... it's actually ok... i'm still on the defensive side with things and ppl but i'm over with all that b/s... no subliminal msging... just gon let myself be happy and just live life... my whole outlook on life has changed... lol.. i had a "life plan" ... lol...  i only want jr and i'm alone.. but it's not bad... it's like everyone says "things happen for a reason" .... so i just take it all i learn from it and try not to make the same mistakes when things later in life... its a big learning process but either way ... it's just so crazy i think i'm just stunned with all the things that have gone on and whats going on... it was kind of a big blur but it's ok now... maybe it just came too fast all at once and now that i've had time to sit back and think it's not bad... i was just scared because i've was with him for so long i didn't know any different or any better but it's all ok... I'm ME and thats all i ever need to be


Thursday, November 23, 2006

So i'm here sayin a quick Happy ThanksGiving... hope you all have a great one.. as well.... i luv you girls ur truly the greatest ... and everyone else i wish you the nicest holiday season... luv you all... i hear alot of noise so i'm missing something i'll ttyL... bye bye

Shanny

 

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Sunday, November 05, 2006

Hey everyone i jus wanted to drop in and say hello since i'm at work and i have access to a computer,.. i've been really well.. not so much crying i have a good job and i am getting another job soon paying more so hopefully i can keep both jobs... Jr's gonna have a great christmas... i'm so excited and sad all at the same time... i start school in Jan... i'm so excited.. i'm finally doing something with myself... and i'm taking care of biznass... but thank you Shawty and CityMami.. i luv you girls so much ... i'm doing well i'm back with my mom for a while to see how things fall into place.. but i hope to hear from all of you soon.. much luv.. i have pix but i'll post them later.. luv you all..

Shanny


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Monday, October 23, 2006

it`s so hard to move on ..

 

[24] Her heart finally realized what her mind knew all along.

[18] I always wonder what's worse:
the pain of wondering
or knowing the truth?

[11] && baby, i wanna hate you so bad

[1] It's wierd how one day someone walks
into your life & then you can't remember
how you ever lived without them..*

[24] laugh when your eyes are burning
smile when your heart is filled with pain
&& DONT LET HIM KNOW
how much you really need him.
</3

 

[20] Friends will always be the ones saying he was never good enough for Ya, but your best friends will be the ones prank calling him at 1am makin chicken noises

 

i found some awesome quotes.... just wanted to share them with you all because they are really great... i'll make a good post for you later.. but for now this is what i have...

 

*..&&as he said i love you  they hung up ... he anwsered the other line "hello sweetie" and the conversation continued .... as his wife was at home ...waiting for him to pull up ... as she waits she crys knowing she's not the only one...

**They say "there are plenty of fish in the sea" ... but why is it that he's the only one i want.. miss.. love.. cry... crave.... 

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these are not my quotes... i got them from another site...

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[1] why do we close our eyes when we
|[ cry ]| |[ kiss ]| |[ dream' ]|
because the best thinqs in life are left
(( `*''u n s e e n ))

[2] … I wish I was your someone.. <3

[3] && youu give
L O V E a
bad name ____

[4] when you looked into my eyes, that's when you had me.

[5] she wasted all the yesterdays focusing on uncertain tomorrows

[6] fall for me, while you still have a chance.

[7] and in that moment when i acted myself for once, you still noticed. and i think that's when i realized you weren't going anywhere too soon.

[8] i look forward to seeing you tomorrow, so i can fall again just like yesterday

[9] I miss you more
Just hearing your
voice
But thats all we've got
we have no choice
If i could have
Just one dream come
true
I'd dream a dream
That I could be with you

 

If you want to hear lies.
I'll tell you my lies.
I hate you
i dont want to be with you.
i've never loved you
& at night, I never cry because of you.
there is your bundle of lies. :)

Is her heart
worth stealing?

Maybe she is just a GiRL.
But she's my GiRL --

How am I supposed to believe in you?
when you cant even trust me enough to 
tell me the truth.

That day i met you was perfect
& i've never turned back since.

I still didnt want it to come to this
but in the end, i still love you </3

I dont know what you did, but you got me to fall for you.
& i know that it's stupid.

Every lie still has a bit of truth behind it

youNEVERknow whatAgirl feelsUNTILshe tellsYOUshe LOVESyou

LOVE? yeah, im sure it happens. but not to me.

We're going nowhere & I'd give up everything.

Never make someone your everything
'cause when they're gone you're left with nothing

I have a notion,
that everytime i see you,
i should walk the other way
&ignore whatever you say,
break your heart
so you know just what you did to me.

You said you were crazy about me.
Crazy enough about her, t o o?

DON'T EVER THiNK iM BROKEN.
YOU CANT BREAK SOMETHiNG
THAT YOU CANT PLAY WiTH

I would tell you all about the [[ b o y ]] i like and how..
p e r f e c t . s w e e t . a m a z i n g l y . c u t e
l o v i n g . c a r i n g . a d o r a b l e . f u n n y
he is.. but if i did -- you'd love him too

xx. I guess what scares me is knowing that at any moment you could rip my heart out and step on it..and I'd just pick it up and hand it right back to you

[3]
shes a hopeless romantic and hes just hopeless


xx. I'm smiling and laughing with all my friends, then I notice you. As my smile quickly fades, I wonder if you can really tell what I'm feeling. I wonder if deep down hidden beneath my smiles you can see my broken heart. I wonder if maybe you're feeling the same way. My thoughts are answered as I watch a tear slide down you're cheek, and I feel your pain. I look away for a second, hoping our love isn't completely lost, and my own eyes blur with tears. I wipe my eyes quickly and return my gaze to you...And then our eyes met once again...


When you kissed me and told me you loved me, I thought you meant it...shame on me for kissing you with my eyes closed so tightly...

It's not that I wanna be the one holding your hand-
-I just don't want someone else holding it..


you haven't changed, stop fucking lying, don't you fucking realize, you keep her up all night crying

[xx. you wrote her name into the sky, making her cry, trying to act like its alright, but you think her love isn't worth a fight.

*you don't know who to choose, oh it hurts to cry, you feel like you wanna die, cant give up now, you'll find the one somehow

. my love is reflected in a teardrop that rests my soul, the days keep growing older as we grow colder, you never realized what you meant to me, I kept dreaming of what I wanted us to be, together forever sealed with a kiss,
I never though love could miss .

]
I hold you inside my heart hoping you wont break apart

[
I've finally found the boy who makes my
heart beat faster & s l o w e r at the same
time
& the only problem is - he isn't mine

&& you just lost the girl
that would of done ANYTHiNG
to be your EVERYTHiNG

xx..but every time I smile.. I think of you, its like a habit, its the only thing I can do. and every time I laugh I picture you, cuz ur the one that makes me happy, baby you know you do

[17]
they ignore each other look the other way but they both no it wasn't supposed to end this way

[18]
tell my heart to stop beating, tell my mind to stop thinking , throw a stone in the ocean and tell it to stop sinking , tell the sky not to be so blue , well its like telling me not to be in love with you

[19]
something's are better left unknown and unsaid

[20]
i swear id rip my heart out if u said you'd be impressed

I'm not supposed to love you ,  I'm not supposed to care , I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there , I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do I'm sorry I cant help myself
I'm in love with you

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[1] since we're being brutally honest here,
you were the worst mistake i've ever made

[3] She's scared because she finally realized,
how much he means to her

[4] Live for today
Because yesterday is over
And tomorrow may never come

[6] you stole my heart.. ripped it out..
&& smashed it on the floor. and i
SMiLED because you touched me..

[7] and you'll be my prince charming
&& i'll be your high school sweetheart

[8] to him, she invisble. but
to her, hes all she can see x3

[9] thrill me. suprise me. dazzle me. delight me.
tease me. give me days I'll remeber,
and night I'll never forget. give me everything I want and nothing I need.
give me you. you. give me sexy

 I dont miss you,

i miss who i thought u were

 

[13] dont believe the guy who says i love you..
but believe in the guy who does show that he does.

[14] If I had my way,
I'd never get over you.

I saw your face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you x3

when she smiles. you know something's
missing because her eyes don't s-h-i-n-e like
they would if he was here <33

you`ll never know how it feels
when the person that means
E V E R Y T H I N G
to you has the ability to make you feel like
N O T H I N G

my theory is
that if i kept my distance
maybe you would see
what you were missing

[19] you had me ...
you said you loved me
you said you wonted to spend
the rest
of your life with me
you said you wouldn't ever hurt me
but i guess i was to busy listening to see
what was really going on
you had me in a daze
& now i cant even look at you
without hurting

& its all because
you blinded me
with your "love
"

[20] & she was left all alone
no one to hold her
& tell her it will all be ok

[21] when the girl smiles
is she really smiling
or just trying to please

[22] I hate your smile
I hate you laugh
I hate your hair
I hate the way you looked at me
I hate the way you loved me
I hate how we used to talk
I hate how I can hate you so much
but in the end I love you more
then I could ever hate you

[23] smile like you mean it
smile like you where never hurt
smile like you are doing great
smile like everything is ok
smile like you did when you had him
smile like nothing went wrong
just smile so no one knows that anything is wrong
even though the whole world is wrong

[24] When he's not around theres
something missing in her smile

[25] I wonder..when I pass by.. does his stomach do a flip? does he get nervous? does he ignore his friends just to look at me?
does he wait to see my smile? does he get sweaty palms? does he think to himself.. "oh my
..here she
comes.."

 

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3]
I took a vowe, to never forget you.

[4]
Yeah, I'm sure they call it L.O.V.E
But I call it F.A.K.E & O.V.E.R.R.A.T.E.D

[5]
& I can't lie, you know I'm missing you.

[6]
Sweetie, you had me at
"Hello"

[7]
I'm stronger now, then I ever was before.
[8]
. i've . found . the . heart . that . beats . with . mine .

[9]
Yeah, in case you were wondering...
You are that boy.

[10]
No ones heart truly breaks, cus if it did
a lot of people would be dead.

[10] && at the end of the day . .
when i see that smile of yours
the p a i n all seems to go
[ away ]

[11] so here we go again..
with all your mixed
signals....
and all my second thoughts.

[12] keep smiling little girl, you're making him fall.

[13] she drew a heart on the frosted window and watched it fade with time

[14] how can i miss something so much
if i never even had it ? <|3

[15] find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot
who calls you back when you hang up on him
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep
wait for the boy who kisses your forhead
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats
who holds your hand in front of his friends
who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on
wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you && how lucky he is to have you.
&& wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."


[14]
Lets flip a coin.
   Heads; I'm yours.
   Tails; You're
mine

[15]
make her cry...you love her right?
everythings fine.. so lead her on
& tell her lies; its no big deal
she's just a girl...right?

[2]
& i keep thinking you and me are fact, when really we're only fiction.

[3]
Boy, I wish I could explain
how much you mean to me.

[4]
I let all of our moments slip a w a y </3

[5]
& I'll be the place you can hide, & leave the whole world outside<3

[6]
I think you belong in my
h_e_a_r_t

[7]
I lie awake at night, & wait for the phone to ring
hoping i'll hear your forgiving voice on the other side,
i miss those days, when you actually cared.

[8]
I'd trade in forever just to hear you say the sound of my name.

hold my hand kiss me by
suprise, & let's waste our
saturday nights together

& i am done ; waiting for something that just isn`t gonna happen . . </3

[5] heard your voice again today,
Im scared by all the lies that were once
Promises you made.. I lay in bed
awake
at night and wonder what went wrong...
or even more.. what went right </3

[6] oh, && she wants you to know. . .
she loves the way you laugh && your dumb smile. . .
it has her fallin head over heals for you

[7] you`re in my dreams both day and night, you
wont go away no matter how hard i fight. its
driving me crazy, i dont know what to do. i
guess this means . . i love you <3

[8] I want to be the one that makes
your smile shine

[9] i just want to be your everything.

[10] just when you least expect it you start to think about how he makes you laugh and& how you feel when you`re around him and& you realize after all this time you care about him more than you ever thought you did

[11] so just keep on going strong
when you've been crying
all night long

[12] I want to be the smile, the first thought, the long drive, or the short walk, the last voice, the random call, the laugh, the perfect kiss, the comfort hug, your second half, everything you need, just what you want, I want to be your perfection.

[13] oh, don't worry about her. she's always upset, she's always
in love with someone who doesn't love her back. she's
always heart-broken. so she's fine. by now, she's used to it.

[14] dear diary,

i can't get him off my mind.
and it scares me,
cause i've never felt this way

youu`re what keeps me alive
the thought of youu. the way
your eyes look into mine. whether
I die tomorrow or 50 years from
now. my destiny is the same. it`s
you I want to be with forever.
I love youu

[17] ..& how do youu say
goodbye to everything
youu`ve spent your entire
life trying to hold on to.

it`s so hard to move on ..
still loving what's gone

 she waits && waits for you to come.
she cries && cries because
you did it again. <|3

 

[22] Boy: So what are we?
Girl: I don't know. What do you want to be?
Boy: Whatever makes you happy.
Girl: I'm already happy. So what will make you happy?
Boy: You.
<3

 

[23] you can come over. we can watch a scary movie and take stupid pictures fall asleep together on my couch because you are my everything and all that i am, is yours.

tomorrow's never promised. kiss slowly, play hard,
forgive quickly, take chances. give everything you've
got && have no regrets. life's too short to be
anything but happy.

lets be nothing
i heard it lasts
f o r e v e r <3

i love you , but you love her </3

 

[3]
you need her
i could be her <3

[4]
To put it nicely
I hope you choke

[5]
& boy, you're such a good liar.
But i'm so much better

[6]
I think he loves me.

[7]
He'll use you, abuse you, and hurt you.
But, I think you're used to it.

[8]

. . . All I wanna do when I'm with him is cry.



 

[2] someone mentioned your name; my
stomach dropped && my heart
started
beating
faster.. [ i couldn't breathe ] .
& then i realized i have fallen for you <3

i don't know if it's the way he says my name, or the
way he catches me staring at him & pretends not
to notice the smile on my face. maybe
it's just the
way he makes me feel about myself, even when i'm
down. but when i look at him, i see all those memories

The truth is...I'm a liar.
I do love him.
I like him a whole lot.
& of course I dream that it could work out.
But in my heart, I have to tell myself that it won't.
Because I know he doesn't feel the same.

&& He's got me falling &&
can't see this because
he's too busy
wasting his time on her

&& we'll rip,
our tear drenched,
photographs apart

[7] Never mind, forget it. They're just memories
on a page inside a spiral notebook. You can say
I have changed, you never knew me in the first place.

kkkkk

[8] Lets look at the stars
and kiss all night
lets take things slow
then speed things up
lets take stupid pictures
and laugh until we cant breathe
lets be forever
you and me

[9] .i tried to take the pain away
by finding someone new....
but
then i realized
no one compares to you..& you may not know it
and i may not show it, but
why can`t you see? that
you mean everything to me.

 

[10] gorgeous eyes with
a gorgeous smile
he made her
life worth while
a broken soul and
a broken heart
the day he made her world
fall apart

[13] && the truth is.. i smile just
to see the smile on your face.

[14] && these break up songs
are starting to make sense again

[15] this may never start.
we could fall apart. ¢¾
& i'd be your memory.

[16] i'm the girl, the one that always lost. the one
with the fake smile &&
the girl who seems to
be so strong, but daily continues to break that
girl who's always there and seems to no problems
of her own. the one who holds, back tears until
she's off the phone.. that girl that is in love with
a guy who doesn't care . <|3

 

[17] just when you least expect it, you start to
picture yourself with him *& you think
about the way he makes you happy *&
you see how it all makes sense. *& you
realize you care about him a lot more than you think

i love those fake little fights we
have when we're together . .
because i know that if i walk
away, you`ll come after me.

[28] They say listen to your heart,but what if you
don't understand what it's trying to tell you?

[29] the happiest people don`t have it all
they just make the best of what they`ve got

 

[30] wish my heart told me from the beggining
that you weren`t worth it

[31] why am i nothing to you
when you are everything

to [ m e ]

 

[33] sometimes its easier for me to PRETEND
rather than face my feelings. sometimes
its EASIER to try to make it alone rather
than risk getting HURT again. sometimes
its easier to be NUMB towards certain people
so i don't let them get too close. sometimes
i`m scared, but when i act NUMB towards you,
it doesnt mean i don`t CARE... it means i care TOO MUCH.

&& the day you left ..
i stopped being myself
nobody understood it </3
i was missing a part of me   YOU!!!

[37] If I could tell you one thing, I guess it would be that I love hearing your voice and that your smile just happens to brighten my entire day and those little things you do without even knowing it.

[44] during the day at random times
thoughts
of you fill my mind
& i picture that s m i l e you gave me
& i swear that for one second ..
i can barely b r e a t h e.

[45] i just want a different ending
to our same old story __ ;
let's try to make it last this time
and prove them all wrong <3*

[46] just because her eyes don't tear
d o e s n ' t , mean her heart ; ;
doesn't cry . & just because she
comes off strong doesn't mean
there's nothing w r o n g * ' x3

[47] && when you get c a u g h t
staring at him, remember he was
l o o k i n g b a c k

[48] I [ learned ] a lot over the years,
through fake smiles & un'seen tears
friends sometimes aren`t forever
that happy memories stay with you;
&& those moments go by --so fast--
so enjoyy the things that go on now
cause the good stuff never lasts

[49] wiping the tears from her eyes some days
she feels like dying && some days its not
worth trying she gets so sick of crying

[50] The truth is that I always think of you..
hoping you will think of me..smiling..

[40] you treated me like i was your world. like
there was no one else but me. and now that
it's all over & done, you still look at me the
same way, so that must mean something.. x3

[43] Go ahead and look away
Act like everything's okay
Ignore my tears, I
understand
Kill me as you take her hand

 

**there are so many more.. but i'll finish them later.. my baby woke up... lunch time.. but i promise a good post later.. okiez.. luv you all..

 

Shanny

 


 



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